Before I received a BPD diagnosis and medical and psychological treatment my life was dominated by my symptoms. I moved city or country every 18 months, I dropped everything and literally walked away for up to a month, and woke up one day and abandoned my religion and broke off my engagement. I’ve quit jobs on a whim, splurged tens of thousands of dollars and screamed at my son for spilling a few drops of water. It was that last one that led me to seek help.
That was about ten years ago. I have stayed in Sydney, and I surf the ups and downs, but I’m not making snap decisions that turn my life inside out. It’s been a year or two since I cried for no reason. I don’t bunker down in my bedroom for weeks. The most recent part of my journey is understanding how my bipolar nature has affected my everyday thinking and behaviour even when I’m on the level.
With treatment and help I am hoping to move towards moderate versions of my long-held ambitions by unwrapping those perceptions, behaviours and habits. Seeking effective treatment has held my hand since my diagnosis, and patiently helped me sail towards calmer waters with gentler waves where less frantic bailing is necessary!
With treatment and help I am hoping to move towards moderate versions of my long-held ambitions by unwrapping those perceptions, behaviours and habits. Seeking effective treatment has held my hand since my diagnosis, and patiently helped me sail towards calmer waters with gentler waves where less frantic bailing is necessary!
Swings and drama are not who you are. Let go of that idea. Give your loved ones respite. You will not lose who you are living a gentler life.“
I’ve quit jobs on a whim, splurged tens of thousands of dollars and screamed at my son for spilling a few drops of water. It was that last one that led me to seek help.
